Stronger

Friday, April 1, 2022

 

“I am thankful for my struggle because, without it, I wouldn’t have stumbled across my strength."
Alex Elle

I had another blog planned but the words and my mood wouldn't formulate it in a cohesive manner.  I wanted to reach out to people who would relate to me, to my journey, my age group, my circumstances.  A happy, joyful blog  reaching out, and full of inspirational words from the bright side.

However, I have not been on that bright side the past couple of days.  My mood has been off, and I have been fighting my emotions.  Fighting it doesn't do me any good at all.  It makes me frustrated, defeated and almost angry that I get like this.  I forget it is part of me.

Earlier today I decided this is where I am right now, I am not going to stay here, but it is part of me, just not all of me.  When I made that decision and stopped the negative internal dialogue things were almost instantly a little lighter.  Rather then argue with myself, I made decisions to get through this web of emotions.  Looking forward into the rest of the day, no longer judging where I was.

So, I bought ingredients for a delicious dinner (which was so yum), I put my favourite linen on my bed, all clean and fresh.  I chose a relaxing blend for my diffusers then as the day darkened I lit candles around the house.

It is now 8.30pm, I am full, the house smells amazing with frankincense, bergot and lavender diffusing, there are candles flickering and I have a delicious glass of wine and watching Supernatural (i love that show!).  I have my fave nightie ready for after my shower before bed, my bedroom has a different blend already diffusing and I know my bed is so cosy with fresh linen.

My overall being is feeling so much better.  I was there, now I am here.  Not 100% but reminded that it is ok to have those days, just don't fight it so hard, be in that moment and remember don't stay there.  Look for tools to get you into a different space.

That other blog will come.. but happy to have put these words down, as we are not all happy 100% of the time.  I want this blog to be real, and this was my reality the last couple of days.  Tomorrow will be better..

Till Next Time
Stay Inspired

Meags xx

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